I feel lonely. . .
Not really sure why.
It hit me really hard this afternoon while the fam was out... after Ruth had left to go on her weekend adventure. It's not the norm for me to feel "alone" but it really ate at me today. It lingered for a bit and seemed to lay dormant this evening. Only these past couple of hours has it returned... gnawing at my mind, weighing on my heart... it tells me: "you are alone... utterly alone" --the thought almost stings a little. I know it's not truth... And what's with these random, unwarranted tears? What's with this feeling of emptiness?? Where did that come from? When did that start?? I've tried to reason --have tried to speak truth to myself... I just feel isolated and disconnected. My only hope is that sleep will bring relief and that morning's new sunrise will bring with it the kind of light that can illuminate these internal shadowy corridors... Maybe rest will be enough to shake this off.
The fam has gone off to bed already and now I'm alone again, but more than that...
I... Feel...
Lonely.
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It's now past midnight... New day... and "Today I choose to be the one and only" : )
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~J~
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